To be or not to be... Is the question .

End of last year, i went to crossword. I like the place. One because they let you read while you are there. And B, because i seem to find all genre of books all the time. I was scrolling through fiction when i came across this 'Interpretation of murder' by Jed Rubenfield. Catchy name i say. As usual i sat down to read it. I found it ok...Wasnt too sure whether i should buy that or settle for the usual Tess Gerritsen or Harlan coben. Ah, what the heck.. i bought it. And then i came home and never felt like i should read it.

One day, mum woke me up yelling bloody murder"why the hell is this room given to you??Id rather have you living in a dumpster! and then i can only vaugely remember blah blah blah blah..But she woudnt gimme breakfast till i straighten my mess. So.. while doing so i came across this book. My library membership got cancelled because i lost one of their books. I blame the trains. So anyway, i started reading it. The book was so gripping. I mean it could actually take my mind off of food and people. If you're an avid reader, id say read this.

Psychoanalysis. The oedipus complex. Sigmund Freud. Jungian theory.
If you havent heard of atleast one of these things i think you should die.
This book has all these things. And believe me, its creepy.
The oedipus complex is a theory put forward by an Austrian, Sigmund freud - the "father" of psychology as payal calls him. Actually he was infamous during his times, mainly for this theory. This theory is used in psychoanalysis wherein, a child unconsciously develops a desire for the parent of the opposite sex. This desire includes jealousy toward the parent of the same sex and the unconscious wish for that parent's death. Yep.. thats it.

The term comes from the myth of Oedipus, a Greek hero who unknowingly killed his father and married his mother. Freud used the term to describe the unconscious feelings of children of both sexes toward their parents. However, later researchers used the term Electra complex for the complex in girls. According to Greek legend, a woman named Electra helped plan the murder of her mother. This book also deals with such a character, strongly viewing this story as a detailed description of Freuds theory coming in first hand. Although the story is true, the author has used a few characters that are added to make it a bomb.
Jung, also mentioned in this story is a student of Freud who later on, goes on to create his own theories following his mentors steps.

I am not campaigning for Freud or his theories. But since i read and dont do anything else which is fruitful i thought ill write about it. I can honestly say i am in awe of this man who made these declarations at the end of the 19th century.
He has written articles and even books on people who werent his patients and research claims that most of these have been proved true. People such as Leonardo da Vinci, Moses, Michelangelo... again just to name a few.
I would also want to mention that i dont like the IPL because that gives my brother an extra thing to "battle" for at home apart from his football.. Aaarghh!!

And whether you accept freuds theory is food for thought. Not just understand but also accept it even if you have to experience it. With yourself, your friends, your kids.. Anything. Because, whether you like it or not, IT IS TRUE.

Aah.. This means something.

Ever woken up with that closeted nauseating feeling that something is not right? Ok, maybe I should just rephrase that.Ever woken up with what you thought is just a 'pre-exam' notion that you are unwell? I can answer positively to that last one. I woke up with Tonsillitis on the morning of my monstrous exams.Beautiful feeling.
Bacteria are disastrous unicellular organisms(im in science, so what else did you expect?) that are important,persay.you cant see them, you cant feel them.But they are there. They grow in you, living off of you, reproducing and more.It has been scientifically proved that there are 500-10000 species of these (aargh!!!) creatures in our body. That means there are about 1000 trillion or 1 quadrillion bacteria in our body. About 15 million just in our mouth. If that didnt gross you out, nothing ever will!!
Ive been feeling down lately. If you love music, you should download Marco Antonio solis(havent heard of him?!), his songs are just so awesome. Im humming to his tunes all day specially'Musica Instrumental De Marco Antonio Solis.' Coming to music, Pearl Jam.. If you guys happen to read this, specially you Eddie Vedder(I love you..mwah!).. COME TO INDIA!!!I dont know too many people who love pearl jam. But then again, many people i know dont listen to classic rock. I saw Black and white. I dont get why this movie didnt do too well. It was so real. And there are speculations that it is a real life story based on some urdu professor from Delhi. Today i also met a rickshawallah who can converse in 'like-you-and-me' english. Sigh, Im starting to feel illiterate again. That guy bought back 'Holy cow'! I miss an old friend. She would say that phrase like a million times a day!
I cant say that i can write too well. But what i write is me. Totally me. Like it or leave it. But then again, Im amateur. Ill learn with time. With a lil moral support. Thats your job..Ciao!!
P.S: Plz pray for my KT paper.. C PROGRAMMING... Im telling you man.. Stay away from it..It can ruin your life!
P.P.S: From Gautam - You are my reason to smile. Every single day. Thank you. :)
"In my mind...
through the night...
all night long...
a tragic voice can be heard
the voice of an angel keeps calling...
an angel with a living soul...
shes bleeding...
shes falling...

the dark angel of melancholy...
the dark angel of suffering...
these cold tears
full of boundless agony...
wish i could take it all away...
take it all in me
the sadness in your voice,
the mournful melt of your tears
is my own grief
let me take it all away,

i see it in your eyes...
your desolate soul...
a soul with a bleeding heart
but a heart of gold

i shall take it all away
your grief will be gone...
your mind is mine
your spirit is mine
my existence depends on yours,
my soul....my soul is yours
for you...i cry
for you...i die
in this cold bare night,
i look up at the sky
basking in your moonlight
,i want to fall asleep and dream
...you take my beyond infinity
you define my existence...
your sorrow is mine,
your grief is mine
my soul bleeds for you
selfless, i reach out for you
in this cold bare night,
pierced through my heart,
your tears...your mournful tears...."